Monday, March 31, 2008 | 3:55 AM

Stoning

Happened to be at home today...just done dinner and was staring at my dad doing the dishes and suddenly a thought just pop into my head - Is this the kinda life one will have after getting old and married? I realised my parents super have no life....like they barely have real frens at all..no wonder they expect me to be no - lifers like them which is next to impossible. I think they have a boring life....day in and out do the same thing....it just strikes me that I dont want this kinda life, I dont want to be those stay at home kind the whole day and let my brain slowly turn moldy and mushy like tofu....I'll want to keep working to keep myself occupied and work my brain... might not want to get married too...really dont see the point of getting married after seeing all the things around me....kids nowadays are really too much to handle...its damn expensive to have one and even harder to bring him or her up properly.....married with kids end up super no life also....

Anyway am contemplating whether I should hit the button....wondering if i should just get myself away before all the madness comes in....toying with the idea of hong kong....did i mention going there alone? Have never travelled alone....might be interesting

Sunday, March 30, 2008 | 12:10 PM

Fucked up

Apparently I have a FREAKING temper and FARKING no brain to THINK

At the grand old age of 25 I FARKING dunno how to be considerate to those sleeping at home at 5am in the morning

I cant FARKING THINK before I act

Oh...I have a FARKING LOW EQ too

So in order for me to learn my FARKING lesson

Just be another farked up person to come and cow peh me

And if im so farkingly farked up

Den just get the HELL away from me!

Saturday, March 29, 2008 | 11:04 AM

Unhappy

Sometimes people just have to face the hard truth
Nothing stays peaceful
Nothing stays the same
Everything changes constantly
One can be lured into believing that sometimes there might be happy endings
But nothing last forever

Sometimes one thinks that there is something call sunshine after the rain
But one always forget that the water cycle is an ongoing thing
It will never stop

I wonder what is going on the other side
Wondering what is going through that brain
I just want something simple
Yet the simplest thing is often the hardest thing

Tuesday, March 25, 2008 | 10:41 AM

DeJa Vu

Had dinner cum supper with TJ today plus I needed to return him money....we couldnt decide what to eat and while waiting for him to arrive, somehow at Mac I keep thinking of what happened the last time, prob its also because of one of the places I suggested was the placed it happened. Anyway we ended up at Changi ( again! but not nasi ) eating some dim sum thing which i didn know about. Was very taken in by this 2 big huskies...damn cute looking but i pai sei to take picts....so taken in till the last time on my mind was bumping into SY. Super best lor....of all ppl his side of frens again....and the terrible deja vu sets in.....somemore now is really not the time to have such misconceptions cropping up again like the last time...im sooo afraid of history repeating itself....those repetitive uncertainty and horrible feelings i went thro the last time.... really dont want to think about it ever again and i dont wan it to ever happen again....now i just pray everything will be back to normal....i dont want it to drag on and on again like the last time...it sux to the max and experiencing once is more than enough!

Anyway went to eat the red tea thing again....had a live show going on....some ah pek was bleeding from the whole side of his right face and the front of his tshirt was soak with blood sitting in front of the dessert store....the horrible thing was the blood was dripping and his hands were bloody too and he still use it to wipe his face again and fresh blood came out.....the best thing is he was sitting abit too calmly drinking duno beer or tea chatting with another guy who was CALMLY looking and chatting and smoking with the bleeding ah pek!! AND the 2 aunties selling dessert ALSO continue sell dessert while stopping for sometime to chat with the ah pek! when i mean chat is really CHAT, not the ask him how is he kind...is more like those asking him 'hey hows your day' kinda chat.....i was like so amazed lor....its so WTH...how can someone be bleeding like that and so many ppl sit there as if nothing happen? Anyway the police came and there was a big hooha with many ppl staring and kpo ppl like me and TJ trying to listen and peep at what was happening....apparently the story is that some guard toilet bangala who always get into trouble fight with the ah pek and hit him till like that....made me wonder why the bangala not scared kana send home cas high chance when he go hm mayb the loan sharks there might kill him and his family cas obviously he borrow money to come here guard toilets. Maybe he dont like guarding toilets or maybe he dont mind going back and fight with loan sharks

Sunday, March 9, 2008 | 8:35 AM

Wonderings

Im kinda sian by this layout

But i still like the black gloomy feel

Black quietens me.

Suddenly appreaciate the fact why people make comments like will you rather be happy and poor or unhappy and rich

Yearn for those student times

Poor yes but happier, more full of crap and much more carefree

Does financial freedom really makes one happier?

How does one balances out all the opportunity costs in life and dont live to regret?