Thursday, April 12, 2007 | 5:54 AM

Drainedz

Im worn out...feel so totally drain with all energy being sucked to duno where...during times like this is when i feel every single inch of me is gone...being totally sold as a slave to work...i feel it overpowering me, taking control over my life such that there isnt an individual me anymore... am turning into someone with work hanging over my head constantly...i wonder how long more can i take it...i wonder if the opportunity cost of giving up working in a line i like in exchange for a peace of mind and regular rest time is worth it anot....will i be happier doing something i dont like but i'll still have a regular life like the normal OL with regular 9 to 5 jobs? He's right...i dont have a life that is called my own now...even on my supposing off days there isnt any real rest for me cas i'll still be constantly bugged by work...where did my life went to? i cant seem to rem a day whereby its my off day and i have a proper rest w/o killing half my brain cells and thinking of work...its like a shadow looming around my brain...i cant rem when was the last time i had a ME time, a private time for myself...i actually lost personal time to spend time with myself...thats real pathetic isnt it? i feel im being suffocated, dropping into the vast abyss of a bottomless cliff....i wan to get away from all these....need some personal time to be alone and reflect on myself, my actions and its consequences be it on myself or on others....i need to get away...shd have gone to TW... i need to have ME time....seriously...i really do...