Friday, March 23, 2007 | 7:30 AM

Moody

Just came back from the warehouse sale...some stuff there is really super duper cheap...and its good stuff, not old stocks...as usual, after the setup yesterday, everyone started reserving all the hot picks so by the time it was open to public today alot was already gone...burnt a hole in my pocket too...how can anyone resist a cheap buy? *Gur eyeshadow at $5 each...YSL mask at $30 for a box of 6 when usual price is $120...obviously all of us pick stuff with upmost care since internally we know which are good buys and what stuff are ageing stocks.

The other day Zep met with an accident cas a stupid cabby serve to pick up passengers without signalling...was shocked cas ntg concrete was known since roy cant give a proper account of what was going on....was confused too cas he can actually tok to me over the fone and yet he sounds in pain so i din have an idea how bad was it...anyway heng derrick was in office so we both took halfday and rush down together...both freaked out cas of the unknown...so we spent the day at TTSH waiting...at least i was lucky cas i was the only one who could go into the A&E area...oh, i saw close ups of his bloodied toe and was pretty fascinated by it cas a bit of the flesh was gone and the skin around the area was all crumpled up and dark blood clots were forming too...well... at least he was one of the lucky ones...not too terribly injured even though broken a bit of bones...he just beta dont ever ride bike again if not a certain someone will SKIN him alive, break him into little pieces and feed snakes...

Someone ask me the other day about hows my r/s with the SO and if he stands a chance to come after me...then he mentioned something which has already been mentioned in the past quite sometime ago....brought up those questions that I cant answered a year ago...that time he asked why am i still holding on to someone i love but who aint loving me right or communicating with me and why cant i let go and go for him since he is someone who will treat and love me in a much beta way? Dodo always tell me the same thing too...that its beta to be loved and treated well by someone than to have it the other way around and always be the one giving in. Cas in every r/s, someone always love the other more than the other love him/her. Selfish thinking, but there is still some element of truth in it...its a defense mechanism for people who are afraid of getting hurt...yet, how is one suppose to be truely happy?

Anyway, at this point of time i in totally moody mode due to some incident...not blaming anyone or whatever, i just cant help but keep brooding over it since there are always constant reminder and its just.....just feels damn weird....probably i need to burry myself in work so that i will be distracted and not think about it and maybe it will tire me out so i wont have the energy to brood also...

The road once trot upon seems quiet and dark, yet the path in front is filled with haziness...face to make choices at the junction, which route shall thou take?