Monday, February 5, 2007 | 8:04 AM

Sick

Had fever and down with flu since Sat but only went to see doc on Sun cas really bo pian..i cant possibly skip work for 2 days w/o mc rite? anyway when i finally had the energy to drag myself out of bed to go to the doc, the stupid place was close....i didn know it was halfday on sundays... and its like by the time i cycle to elias to see doc i was already feeling pretty wozzy....felt super weak and head spinning so really felt damn shit when the bloody place wasnt open! Felt really pathetic cas its like im sick and there wasnt anyone with me at that point of time...did contemplated if i should ask him about the 24hr doc at his hse but decided to go tamp instead... maybe its cos my head was spinning or maybe i was just careless...whatever it is, i kinda lost control of the bicycle and went off track onto the grass...dont know what happen excatly also but somehow when i tried to swerve it back to the path i suddenly collided with the macdonald delivery bike and i just fell over with the bicycle on top of me...it was when i realised i actually somehow rip off the chains on the bicycle that i just cant take it anymore...just felt so shitty about the whole thing and just cant help but broke down...probably was feeling really vulnerable at that time i guess....well...he came down and accompany me to the doc...thanks ya? that helps alot...even though i always make fun of you and laugh at you like mad, i seriously appreaciate the way you have been around for me all these while and im also sorry for messing up your life...

he pissed and upset me with those heartless crude remarks too and somehow it always made me feel terrible...i still haven reach the stage where whatever he said has NIL effect on me...i guess when that happens then i will noe i finally and truely get over everything...everything that has happened.....................