Tuesday, January 9, 2007 | 6:07 AM

Rantings

I suddenly appreaciate the saying that when you take MC for a day, your work just pile up... how totally true it is...cant understand why there are like so many emails in a day, especially when i like just started??? and it totally dosent help that i haven get my own seat yet bcas my department is full to the brim so everytime i go back office i have to 'bunk' in with my boss and obviously i dont have access to the computer since she has more impt stuff to do than me....just glancing at my emails alone made me blur...and it feels darn weird that Im being discussed in emails like i dont exist, discussing if i should be doing certain stuff together with what im being thrown at currently...its just...weird.....anyways i just realised that there is really tons n tons of things im expected to do and handle once i get the hang of the way things work in this business... everything is still so new and foreign to me...maybe if its skincare like what i had been doing last time probably i wont feel so lost since im much more at home with skincare as compared to perfumes...yet i am really thankful and appreaciate that i get the opportunity to learn in this job cas not everyone can get a job they have an interest in...and although im scared that i'll cock things up with all the new responsibilities thrown at me, at the same time i dont want to lose this super good learning opportunity and waste it....hopefully i'll be ok sia...*cross fingers*

that aside, im still trying to make myself to tune out to what has happened....thot i can do that real quick and get most of my spark back... yet those few words he said threw me into turmoils again...just when i tot i can calm myself down...i dont wan any stupid hopes anymore... no more...there has been too many of it and i dont want to believe anymore.......fragilez.............