Sunday, December 31, 2006 | 12:23 PMStupid Blogger
Bloody blogger....waited for like more then a week before I can actually log in and post...still thought can do daily post when I was in Jap....by the time i finally can log in im already so dead tired...so many things happen and so much to blog...now really too tired to blog...haven been really sleeping...I need a proper rest...super moodyz and worn out with everything...like I said before...if more things come my way I wont be able to take it...and I forsee myself being swallowed up and get lost and drown in all these happeningz....going to cant take it soon....others always say what doesnt kill you makes you stronger....but what if it kills me?what will become of me then???shall blog again when im in a more awake state of mind.................................................... *one foot on the path to singlehood*
Wednesday, December 20, 2006 | 9:50 AMA Bolt of Lightning....
A bolt of lightning...that's what you are and not a star...as sudden as it lights up the darkest skies, it was gone as fast as it came...just when the dark skies starts to really appreciate the flash of light that cuts through it...it was left with darkness again, left with nothing, back to square one with additional hurt because the sky mistook and thought the flash of light was a star that will hang up there for quite some time... the shock, the hurt, the bewilderment...izzit all real or was it just a passing dream that there was that flash of light? everything is too much to bear so the rain clouds came and left, left behind a gap, a hollow in between the skies...if only that flash of light will change its mind and come back as a star just like what the dark sky thought and not a bolt of lightning....for now its time for the sky to see if the clouds will part and reveal the moon...
Tuesday, December 12, 2006 | 3:12 AMI Am Unhappy
I am unhappy...super duper unhappy and moody...hearing it coming from other people makes it even worst...even others are feeling indignant for me...I dont think I have much perserverance left...Im tired...weary...tired of waiting and hoping and what I only get back is disappointment...it sux even more when he just ' slap' me in the face and say Im always irritating him...can you actually for once look at the reasons for the problem/actions instead of just plainly looking at the symptoms? There are reasons for every action...if you think Im always irriating you why dont you do something to recify it like telling me about it instead of leaving me clueless and wondering why Im always at the receving end of your temper...What I lack now is courage, courage to break free, courage to step out of the comfort zone and into the unknown, courage to embrace the unfamilarity and determination to force and propel myself forward and move on with life....guess what my dodo, sian ming, rando...etc said is true after all...that I deserved better and there are many better guys out there...that I should go and date around and dont restrict myself so fast...Like what I've been brutally hit after hanging around more with friends recently...Friends care and are more concern about me then him...Friends were the once who shared my joy, my anxieties and comfort me and give me assurance when I was feeling down and not him....and its not that he dont know Im feeling down...I just dont see any form of actions at all....I guess to him maybe Im not even worth a friend...
Sunday, December 10, 2006 | 8:43 AMJust a lil short post
He's back...and Im soooooo dying to confront him about it just now when he told me he's back....the words are just itching to get their way outa my mouth but I stop myself cas I thought it will be much better if I confront him about it face to face...I just simply dont see the logic...the explanation wasnt even plausible...how can 2 pictures suddenly got deleted away and cant be upload when you can happily put in that stupid picture along with others??Tomorrow...tomorrow shall be D-DAY!!! Grghzzzzaaz....'Hi sweetie'????my blood boils even more...
Saturday, December 9, 2006 | 8:48 AMThoughts....
Remembered that I left out some stuff in the previous post about horsing around at Roy's house...We actually wanted to take Jerry home after making him drunk and everything but ended up staying over since everyone except me and Roy were all totally pissed by the alcohol. The guys ended up drinking way past what they intended since Jerry was freaking lucky!!! He actually keep winning at all those cards games we played and ended up we drank more than him...anyway I didnt really fell asleep there so I just jumped at any sound I heard in case Jerry wakes up and puke again....so I knew who woke up and who slept all the way...well, both me and Zep woke up when Roy was going to work...both stoning and nua-ing halfway when Zep decided to go to the loo....I wanted to go too but went to the loo in the room since he went the one in e kitchen...the funniest thing was Zep started cursing and swearing cas he discovered that the toilet bowl was full of FLOATING SHIT mixed with toilet paper and it stinks like hell!!! Thank god I didnt went in! Anyway I was certain the poo poo was done by Ted since he was the only one who woke up halfway...it was freaking funny when we confronted him about it....his logic of not flushing the toilet was this - he couldnt flush all the stuff away so he decided to cover them up with toilet paper since the shit looks ugly and then wait a while more before trying to flush again....ended up he fell asleep so the shit was left like that for hours!!! Gross!!!! Think the toilet was kinda 'choked' since too many of them puked inside hahahah.......
Friday, December 8, 2006 | 10:10 AMMy Wantsssssss
Its the season for GIVING!!!! so WHO wanna gimmi all these????
| 9:48 AMUpdates updates updates
Wanted to blog after the SITEX show but too caught up with everything so feel too lazy... anyway I was like packed every single day till now...oh...I actually saw that freaking bastard jerk at SITEX can??? *pengz* Cant believe I actually saw him after managing not to see him for the past 2 years....he was with his gf and even though its damn mean to say this but I'm really GLOATING!!!!!! haha I remembered he used to boast all his gfs were 'my pattern', skinny with long hair....mayb its retribution for what he did or maybe its true love or something but his new gf is seriously both horizontally and vertically challenged(mean yes but just cant help it) and the best part is he x1.5 times his size too!!!! I dont know if he saw me but I was rooted to the spot when I saw him and immediately poke Phy to show her....now kinda regret man...should have made sure he saw me (ME=alive and kicking and living VERY well w/o this kinda bastard around me)....still seeing him brought back all those unpleasent and horrible memories... memories that could never be erased nor reduced the hurt he inflicted...am glad that I dumped him and didnt look back no matter how he blackmail me.....oh..apparently there was another jerk too...the one at our booth selling the same products...gosh...would so love to just slap him or stuff something up his ass for being such a shitty person....no need any mention of names...we all know who Im refering to you shorty asshole who thinks wearing sleeveless is freaking cool (maybe its really cool cas u can air ur smelly moronic armpits)
Saturday, December 2, 2006 | 10:55 AMPast Updates
Been meaning to update once my Sony roadshow ends but totally no time and packed till now. Roadshow ended on 26th and I remembered feeling so lost....its like day in day out for the past 2 weeks, 12hrs a day I worked, see, have fun with these great bunch of people and suddenly when everything ends its not the same anymore. Though its been stressful at times doing redemption due to those unethical dealers, its been a nice work time for me, a nice memory to have as one of my last few temp jobs before stepping out into the real hateful world. I never imagined to actually made friends with all of them because I didnt have the intention of making friends, only making money because initially I dont see the point of still making friends when most probably I wont work with them anymore after this. Still, I feel that the bunch of guys gave me the feeling that they treat me and Clara like little princesses there, maybe its because we are the only 2 girls there....all those little things they did everyday, from helping us buy food/drinks, asking if we need help when they see us so stressed up, waiting for us when we both were still stucked with the stupid database, sharing food with everyone......seeing all their little actions really put most of the guys I met during my uni life to shame....seen too many selfish pigs around and so seeing these bunch of so unselfish guys really make a big difference......miss those times and the fun we had together, especially all the Jerry jokes that never failed to cheer all of us up!
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